What is the meaning of unrest?
A state of dissatisfaction, disturbance, and agitation, typically involving public demonstrations or disorder, turmoil and chaos. A feeling of disturbance and dissatisfaction in a person or self.
There has been much unrest here in Kampala and I hesitated to even bring it up but in bringing it up it makes me face my own unrest, within myself.
For years I have felt my own unrest and dissatisfaction within myself. I have allowed Satan to steal much of my joy for things that have happened that I would never want a mother to go through as a parent. I am so proud of my daughters they are survivors as well as me, but I could not forgive myself even though I had not done anything wrong I could not forgive myself for what happened, it weighed me down in so many ways for so so many years. It took me coming all the way to Uganda and meeting a dear sister in Christ who talked to me about these issues. A very hard , yet compassionate talk and opening up my eyes to what I had allowed Satan to take from me. My joy. I needed to be kind to myself and forgive myself for the past and I just couldn’t I was punishing myself and had been for years. So as I am very much alone here I have time to ponder on these things and let go of the past.
Here are some verses that have helped me during this time.
Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving present your requests to God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
Philippians 4:12 I know what it is to be in need and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry. Whether living in plenty or in want.
May God cause each of us to reflect on our blessings and cause any of us with the feeling of unrest and conflict within finally give it all to God. Rest in him and Trust him always.